It has been raining here for some time now. Supposed to be nicer this week, but who knows if the 'Weatherman' is on his game-Is he ever? These last two weeks have been really hard and stressful. I'm not sure if I am extremely emotional/off the wall because of the weather, or if I'm starting to let things go through therapy, or if I'm just mental. I haven't been sleeping very well either, my pattern is completely off. That's something I'm trying hard to work on right now. I feel like a fucking failure if I sleep in past 10AM. A few days ago I was laying wide awake at 3AM and all of a sudden I just started crying, just pure bawling. I had no clue what was going on-I just felt sad, and I missed all the friends that had ever moved away from me, and felt helpless. That went on for an hour straight. Needless to say, I am very excited to talk to my psychologist tomorrow and let him know what's going on. It's definitely possible that alcohol is effecting me as well. Some type of detox. Really trying to quit, or at the very least cut the fuck back.
Im sure you all think I'm insane. I don't generally talk about my inner stirrings here, but I need some type of release at least. I've been having all these weird rhymes and poems floating around in my skull for the past few days too, and dreams, tons and tons of vivid dreams.
I HAVE been feeling better with each day. I'm pretty good today actually. So good I took some pictures.
Annnd for your viewing pleasure-One of these!: