6.19.2011

And who needs love when there's southern comfort And who needs love at all.

It has been raining here for some time now. Supposed to be nicer this week, but who knows if the 'Weatherman' is on his game-Is he ever? These last two weeks have been really hard and stressful. I'm not sure if I am extremely emotional/off the wall because of the weather, or if I'm starting to let things go through therapy, or if I'm just mental. I haven't been sleeping very well either, my pattern is completely off. That's something I'm trying hard to work on right now. I feel like a fucking failure if I sleep in past 10AM. A few days ago I was laying wide awake at 3AM and all of a sudden I just started crying, just pure bawling. I had no clue what was going on-I just felt sad, and I missed all the friends that had ever moved away from me, and felt helpless. That went on for an hour straight. Needless to say, I am very excited to talk to my psychologist tomorrow and let him know what's going on. It's definitely possible that alcohol is effecting me as well. Some type of detox. Really trying to quit, or at the very least cut the fuck back.

Im sure you all think I'm insane. I don't generally talk about my inner stirrings here, but I need some type of release at least. I've been having all these weird rhymes and poems floating around in my skull for the past few days too, and dreams, tons and tons of vivid dreams.

I HAVE been feeling better with each day. I'm pretty good today actually. So good I took some pictures.

                                                                                  Rainy day worm

                                                            My friend walking away from me in the alley







                                                       Annnd for your viewing pleasure-One of these!:



Goodnight.

6 comments:

  1. my viewing pleasure is satisfied, thanks mate, keep it up. maybe you should litght up the pic with your mate walking away in the alley because i wouldnt have notice him/her if you hadnt mentioned it. keep up the good work. + follow

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  2. I love the pictures!! The second one looks straight out of fairytale land.

    And I hope you feel better soon.

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  3. If I felt bad for waking up past 10, I'd be suicidal by now.

    Nah, don't think you're insane or anything. It's surprising how many people seem fine and are worse off. Everybody is just really good at acting, that's all. Use the outlet, let the rhymes through too? And I think it's nice that you're cool with your psychologist, people tend to be all iffy at them sometimes for some reason.

    Lovely pictures, dahlin'. Hope all goes well for you soon :)

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  4. Rain didn't miff me as much as the claps of thunder. Yes, I'm an adult baby. BTW...amazing art as always!

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  5. you probably need motivation or something.
    still think your drawings are great

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  6. The weather screws me up too most of the time. Abundant rain makes me want to get punchy.

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